The smarts

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I'm sorry to say, but if you are clever get amazing high marks and you either

• study really hard and have the motivation and attention span to study for long periods of time OR
• just have the smarts and have photographic memory and everything is just so easy to understand

THAT specific aspect of you I both dislike and am jealous of.

It sucks to be so mediocre. I'm not wishing that you were any dumber. I'm just wishing that I was something better. But that would be insulting those who love me and care for me. I'm sorry for that. I honestly just want to give up on anything University-related. I'm not kidding.

 If I could describe to you how I feel at this moment .. it would be somewhere between disappointment, jealousy, envy, anger, frustration. I vowed I wouldn't post another post like this or anything related to this sort of emotional ventilation. But fudge, this is my blog and I can do whatever I like.

In other news, the day ... started off well. What is wrong with me.

x k.