Et Cetera.

What up. Hope y'all are having splendid end of year events and had a wonderful Christmas. Throughout this amazing holiday with the WHOLE family (all 23 of us) I've thought "Oh I've gotta blog about that .. " and never did. But one thing I have to say is that it feels SO complete and whole when an entire family is together. It takes a while for families that hardly see each other to eventually warm up with each other and actually talk and bond. That initial awkwardness sucks and there are still some members of the family that I don't entirely click with but it's awesome when you really click with others.

Ewww that was sweet. Too sweet.

Let's talk awesome.

Well I finally got my DSLR and I have already snapped my way through about 1k of photos which I think is great practice but I need to really get a handle on M(anual) mode and get all ape on arty mode. I'm pretty sure I locked away my creativity in an airtight jar and it's pretty much fermented and warped into a disgusting piece of hm.. Dang... not typing for a while does things to my brain. I'll stop now.

I miss you all (:

Shout out to Harry, Emily, Nathan and James. You guys are awesome and "The Group" would be nothing without each of you. Happy Birthday (: ! I hate that I missed alllll your birthdays. Why were you conceived in the same month. Homg lol. What am I saying ... hahahahahhaha.

♥

k.

4/12/2010

‘Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me’ is NOT true. I don’t understand why this saying has been around and survived so long when clearly, many situations in everyone’s life beg to differ. Bloody heck, words hurt. Some more than others and even if people say things that are so far from the truth ... they can still hurt. Basically, a speeding car drove past and I hear an echoing “f*** off, slut!” I know this is a stupid, immature and most probably a drunkard remark but dang, it hurts when you know something is directed at you. The next time you say something, ‘think before you speak’ is probably the best advice to give. I’ll be trying to too.

♥

k.

P.S. Have beautiful holidays

I called. 

You answered.
And You came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where You are

love,

k.

Honest Question, requesting Honest answer

Do you think you know yourself better than anybody else? Or do you have someone (mortal) that knows you better than you know yourself?

My 2 cents; I think I'm pretty much the only one that truly knows myself, whether it be that I evaluate myself too harshly.

love,

k.

Facing the facts.

I am thankful for the job I have - earning money for my independence. It's actually really physically demanding and working with people that gossip a lot and complain doesn't help very much, but that's ok - I don't mind.

The one thing that does bothers me though is that it's a hospital. When you THINK of a hospital it should be a place of healing and health, but sometimes it's also a place where people are left to die. I don't mean to sound "LEFT to DIE" ... I mean, people go there, knowing that they're probably not going to recover. The majority of the patients that are at this particular hospital are older, and sometimes, just by looking at them - they're sick of hospitals and they don't want to spend the rest of their time in one. But they can't move, they're fragile and they physically can't move. It's difficult. Sometimes I think it's a blessing that I see so many different faces that I don't remember individual people. I think if I did remember certain people, this job would be so much more harder.

I was so against euthanasia - I still pretty much am. The idea of someone playing god and 'pulling the plug' is not something that I follow. But seeing some of these patients, the way they don't answer when people greet them, the way they just LOOK at you ... is an entirely different story. 

A tray of food was returned today (or yesterday)* to the kitchen with a note saying "Patient passed away." I went past that room, it was all nicely done up with the menu on the table, bed made and as if nothing happened.

This blog was REALLY difficult to write.

love,

k.






*my shifts feel so long that they seem to go over DAYS.

PostSecret

love,

k.

Okay

I can't be bothered blogging anymore, not that you'll really be missing out on anything ... But I'm lacking inspiration, creativity and other such essential drives to write/create an interesting blog. I'll be around, but I'll definitely be back with my mojo when I find it.

Something (along the lines of) I told Evan today:

"I finally got the OK from the rents about buying a DSLR after exams ... By 'rents' I really mean just my mum, by  'OK' I really mean an 'mhmm' in passing conversation and by 'after exams' I really mean never."

Hah ! I'm so funny sometimes I make me chortle.

love,

k.

Fighting for Air

"We become silhouettes" - Sarah Loven



I hope you like it.
Summer, please get here soon.

love,

k.

P.S I'm really sorry.

Magic

I hope y'all know this song - if not. There is something wrong with you



love,

k.

Ambition

"Today my dad was telling me about how his friend’s wife just retired. She’s in her late 50’s and they just bought a house in Florida and were getting ready to enjoy themselves after years of hard work. They’d finally reached the time in their lives that they’d been waiting for. She went to the doctor and found out she has cancer all over her body. It started in her bladder and is just everywhere now. She might make it to one single winter in Florida. My point is, shit is fleeting. Live now. Be eager. Do things. You can’t sit on your ass and wait for the day you’re going to decide to be important. If you want to be important, do it. If you always wanted to ride a donkey down the god damn grand canyon, figure out a way how now. None of this shit is promised to us. There is no time to hang out in the waiting room. This is your life, and you have no idea when it’s going to be over. Get to living it." via Kait Payne

I can't agree more. But as much as each one of us wanna 'get living', how many of us will start doing that now? I find it hard to initiatiate such a dramatic thing. You know how I wanna get living? Buy a DSLR and start shooting every damn thing. Why? Because life changes in so many little ways everyday that we don't seem to notice it, and it's always too late when you realise you missed something, or more importantly someONE.

I dare you to find what you love and bloody follow it.

love,

k.

Chameleon

If you were brought up in a place other than where you were brought up - do you think you would be a completely different person?

I think I would be. When I think about it - many of the friends that I had, influenced what I liked, what I was meant to like and what was seen as acceptable. It is a combination of both my own personality and the people that I chose to be in my life. I don't think I'm an individual - I genuinely think that I just copy pieces of other people and I am just a little portions of other people, in one body. For example, I don't think I would've learned to love Lion King or Star Wars if it weren't for my sister. I honestly believe that if it weren't for her I would've grown up thinking Star Wars was a dumb sixology and have no real appreciation for the magnificent series. I'm not saying I don't have my own taste of certain things, I do, but I do think the majority of myself isn't actually from me. So I think, in saying that, if I were brought up somewhere else, with different people in a different situation, I would be me - but a reflection of different people.

Two cents.

By the way, more texty blogs or more picture blogs? I don't mind ... However, I AM worse at in-depth thinking blogs. But sometimes things sound good in my head, but when I blog it. It sounds try-hard.

love,

k.

The Prize Doesn’t Always Go To The Most Deserving

Irena Sendler
1910-2008

A 98 year-old German woman named Irena Sendler recently died. During WWII, Irena worked in the Warsaw Ghetto as a plumbing/sewer specialist. Irena smuggled Jewish children out; infants in the bottom of the tool box she carried and older children in a burlap sack she carried in the back of her truck. She also had a dog in the back that she trained to bark when the Nazi soldiers let her in and out of the ghetto. The soldiers wanted nothing to do with the dog, and the barking covered the kids’ and infants’ noises. Irena managed to smuggle out and save 2500 children. She eventually was caught, and the Nazis broke both her legs, arms and beat her severely. Irena kept a record of the names of all the kids she smuggled out and kept them in a glass jar buried under a tree in her backyard. After the war, she tried to locate any parents that may have survived and reunited some of the families. Most had been killed. She helped those children get placement into foster family homes or adopted.

Last year Irena was up for the Nobel Peace Prize. She was not selected. Al Gore won - for a slide show on Global Warming.

via http://www.snopes.com/politics/war/sendler.asp

♥

k.

All too much

You know what makes a good person? Psh ... I wouldn't know. I was asking you the question.

You know what makes a patient person? I am beginning to learn.

You know what makes someone REAL? GENUINE? When they have flaws that they're not afraid to show. They're not afraid to confess to and they attempt to not be in denial.

You know what makes someone ORIGINAL? The contradictory - "We all are different. But yet all the same" Emphasis on the SAME part.

But you know what makes a jealous person? I know all too much about that.

And you know what else I know all too much about? People who don't deserve what they get.

Lastly? What makes two people fall in love? When they see each other's flaws, when they see their own, and then with each other .. they learn to fall in love with them.

2 cents.

♥

k.

You are the only one that gives me peace

By Elena Kalis


"Mia II" by Lara Jade


"Sweet Burn" by Caitlin Worthington

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I've been anticipating amazing SPRING weather. But I guess good things take time ... and so do things you want really bad. For example, I decided I'd wait to buy my DSLR. Not only that, I decided I'd work for it. Firstly, I'd need a job. Today I sent in my resume for Epworth Eastern Hospital. It would be so convenient to work there - it's in working distance from home.

It's ok if I don't get it. Not saying that I won't be disappointed ... I guess I'll have to keep on trying.

(It's holidays by the way, which is good. I'm not hurrying to start any study :P)

♥

k.

yo, chin up.

It's late and I am tired. Wish I could spark a smile. The place is flying high but right now I wanna be low. Don't wanna move an inch ... let alone a million miles and I don't wanna go but I know I gotta go. I just want to feel alive

The times you don't wanna wake up. 'Cause in your sleep it's never over when you give up. The sun is always gonna rise up You need to get up, gotta keep your head up. Look at the people all around you. The way you feel is something everybody goes through. Dark out, but you still gotta lie up. You need to wake up, gotta keep your face up

Seems like the more you grow the more time you spend alone. Before you know it you end up perfectly on your own. The city's shining bright - But you don't see the light. How can you concentrate on things that don't make you feel right

I just want to feel all right

I'm looking for more than a little bit. I'm gonna have to find my way through it. Gonna leave a mark. I'm gonna set a spark. I'm coming above the ground

I won't be looking down

♥

k. ft lights

Struggles

Of all the many struggle Uni brings .. this one is perpetual, never-ending. Every night, before I go to bed, and when I wake up the next morning. I think ...






WHAT WILL I WEAR TODAY?


Just yer' average confession. Hahahahahahahhahaaha


♥

k.

E

Bello, bello amore - By DoraLovey

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When the rain is blowing in your face and the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace to make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear and there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years to make you feel my love

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet, but I would never do you wrong
I’ve known it from the moment that we met no doubt in my mind where you belong

I’d go hungry, I’d go black and blue, I’d go crawling down the avenue
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do to make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rollin’ sea and on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free you ain’t seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true - nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends of the earth for you to make you feel my love

- Bob Dylan

The smarts

The following content may be distressing to some viewers. Discretion is recommend.

I'm sorry to say, but if you are clever get amazing high marks and you either

• study really hard and have the motivation and attention span to study for long periods of time OR
• just have the smarts and have photographic memory and everything is just so easy to understand

THAT specific aspect of you I both dislike and am jealous of.

It sucks to be so mediocre. I'm not wishing that you were any dumber. I'm just wishing that I was something better. But that would be insulting those who love me and care for me. I'm sorry for that. I honestly just want to give up on anything University-related. I'm not kidding.

 If I could describe to you how I feel at this moment .. it would be somewhere between disappointment, jealousy, envy, anger, frustration. I vowed I wouldn't post another post like this or anything related to this sort of emotional ventilation. But fudge, this is my blog and I can do whatever I like.

In other news, the day ... started off well. What is wrong with me.

x k.

Lions make you brave

"Giants give you faith
Death is a charade
You don't have to feel safe 
To feel unafraid"

Everything happens for a reason. Well all the events that MATTER happen for a reason. I'm not talking about ... what socks you choose to wear in the morning. I mean events and decisions that you make, that others make - they all have a reason as to why they happen. I can't tell you why - but they happen because they contribute to the Bigger Picture - the Greater Plan. If it all ends in disaster, it's not the end. Just something you know now that you didn't know before.

& a closing note,



Found through locki's tumblr.

Have a wonderful weekend.

♥

k.

ONE

This baby will be mine in approximately 14 hours plus or minus 15 minutes. Early b'day brainstorming for me? Film for this little monster. Name please.

And this is a gorgeous person.






Alice Point

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♥

k.

Tick Tock

"12 hours" by Fhrankee

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I cannot tell you how much I love this picture. No, it's not because he's topless. So amazinngg right ?! In other news, as opposed to the recent posts, I'm optimistic for the future. Meet you on the greener pastures, lovelies.

♥

k.

Sexybacks, springtimes and closeups

Yes you heard that correctly... I'm pretty sure it's a kazoo!

One of my fave youtubers (: subsribe here: MysteryGuitarMan

I cannot tell you, how excited I am about SPRING! Just the aesthetics spring brings ... and the air is different.

It's warmer. haha.

On to beautiful people.




"Corner of your heart" by Felicia (INeedChemicalX)

"Ocean lies" by Fhrankee
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Alright, enough for today. I've been having lunch with Sarah these past two days. We're growing up. This feels so weird.

On another note, I miss my camera .. A CAMERA .. SO MUCH ! I left a little part of me in that camera :C I cannot express how down I feel about this. I know this is silly but it means alot to me ! I don't have much that I love, and get "somewhat" recognised being "good" for - and I just really think .. Guh I dunno, I'm so stupid for breaking my own camera !

♥

k.

Mmph.

"Camera clinic advises that your camera equipment is uneconomical to repair and ready for collection."

Fudge this.

Despicable me

Golden.

Can't wait to see this. WHO'S UP FOR IT?!

♥

k.

Cooler Than Me

Watch the entire thing. My new favourite song. I could sing it at many .. many people.

♥

k.

P.S. If you're on youtube, watching a video with a new video layout, hold down the left arrow key and you can play SNAKE ! Dead serious.

Calm before the ... Uni.

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Mitch is at the doctor's - he had a bad fall and ceases to function. Hopefully he's ok. There's a 50/50 chance that he will survive. I hope for the best. (This isn't a person that I know by the way. You'll understand if you know what I mean.)

Today I sorted out my timetable crisis - Thank God. It was an easy solution, and it turned out perfectly fine. If anyone is curious, this is my timetable for semester 2, 2010.



Yay for 2 hour breaks everyday .. except Thursday - a 3 hour break on a prac week.

And you know what? I'm not complaining. At least it's not a one hour break that I can't get any work done. It's a substantial 2-3 hour break that I can actually sit down, eat, and get some work done.

Enough of that shananigans. I'm excited for Sunday. I may be going to Savers with an old best friend, and then perhaps watch Inception with some good people.

♥

k.

From bad to worse

"Suffocate" by Julia Trotti (Copyright is owned by their respective owners - as does credit. Click-through links on images)

On my mind at this moment:
1. my camera and money involved
2. my timetable clash
3. the screw up of the student advisor

That is all for now, and I hope all that have started uni are having a relaxed time.

♥

k.

Gorgeous

Sixteen, South Poland.
Pretty much my hero.



"Silent Sheep"

"Your hands make me crazy"

"Elastic Dead"

"TWIT"

Photographer: Maxwell
Model & Post Processor: LittleFlair

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Last couple of days have been emotionally draining. I had an amazing day out with my dad on 15/07/10. It was just just him and me. We just drove around = high. I nearly bought a DSLR = high. Didn't buy it because of my dad = low. A couple of rows = low. But hey. I'm OK now.

How about you? University starts again in a week. I really hope I get into the tutorial session I want for Mondays.

Currently I am watching Criminal Minds home alone ... and just a couple of days ago I watched "When a Stranger Calls". I'm dreading ANYONE calling home.

♥

k.

Wild Child

"Naked as we came" by SheHatesMondays

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Song to explain the day: Dickhead

By Kate Nash.

♥

k.

Fudgecakes

"Four days of Rain" by Anette Schive

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I promised that from now on I wouldn't post anymore "feelings/emotions" post. But this is exactly how I feel at the moment.

A little deflated and defeated from the inevitable rain.

♥

k.

Update

"Waiting for breath" by Oprisco

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So I got alot to catch up on. It's sad to think that as each day goes past my memories are more vulnerable to being forgotten so - (you don't need to read this, it's really for my own sake) I think I'll just go through each eventful day with a succint and brief sentence ... plus more. I guess.

180610 - Last exam. Walked around Melbourne Central with Sweta, Nipuni & Ellie.
290610 - Catch up with Uni friends. Watched The Ugly Truth.
300610 - E's last exam. Toy Story 3
010710 - James' Winter BBQ. Nachos, Pumpkin soup and then some.
030710 - Dinner @ the Gurney's. Modern Family.
050710 - 070710 - INVERLOCH: Harry, Paolo, Evan, James, Felicia, Nat, Emily. Spaghetti. Kings. 'Bartender'. Twister. Ahh the rest is history and captured in photos (:
080710 - Catch up lunch. Paper round in the morning. Massive LOL at Nathan's Steak dish and carrot jam. EW.
120710 - Out with E. Cop Out. LMAO "Turtle Head".
140710 - Day out with Cords (: Tired feet. Colette, Dotti, Jay Jays, Myer, Food, Valleygirl. Red Cardi.

Next one won't have to be so boring.

♥

k.

Eyes

I chose these two, for their eyes.



"skin." - by Mumbojumbo89


"Sweet Venom" - by Fhrankee

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♥

k.

elsker, elsker ikke

(translation: love does not love)



By Anette Schive

I will make a stop motion one day.

♥

k

Powerpig

"I've got a bad feeling about this"



"OMAGOSH"

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♥

k.

Toy Story 3 & a pleasant BBQ

Yesterday, after E's last exam we watched Toy Story 3. I'm not ashamed to admit that I NEARLY cried (teared up alot) near the end of the movie, behind my scratched 3D glasses. It was an AMAZING movie, and I recommend everyone to see it. IMDB rates votes of wisdom: 9.2/10 ! This is Bonnie by the way :D (left)


Today, we went to James' house for the second edition to his Summer BBQ (although now .. Winter BBQ...). It was fun and real chill. So good to catch up with people. The journey, the walking and training and then walking again, was just as fun as the destination - just because of the people :D (nawww so sweet. If you're thinking that. I take it back ... LOL JK JK). I can't be bothered writing too much and it's 11.44PM so here are some pictures I wanted to share for today.




Series: "Four Days of Rain"


Photographer: Anette Schive
Model: Inga-sofie/Pholk


"And then it goes down"

"Something we call flying"
By LittleBlackUmbrella


"He burned my skin"
By Monislawa

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Anyways, time to go to bed. Not necessarily sleep, perhaps a movie and THEN sleep. Btw. ISKETCH DATE SOON OK?

♥

k.

Dominic

BrushingBoots - "Awake my soul"

Linedanser - "Restless in Paris IV"

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"Being happy is a choice you make every morning. It’s not always the easiest choice, because sometimes you have to change your priorities around it and make decisions that you’d rather put off, but it is the most important choice. " - Kaitlyn Payne

"I would like to ... Read a good book. Go to the library. Cook a dish or bake something. Visit Laura's new puppy. Clean my room/rearrange it. Buy some bids. Win an auction. Do a paper round with my rents. Go shopping. Take some amazing pictures. Get back into sewing - sew something. Find a job - Get that job - Earn some money."

Remember that? That was an extract from a couple of blogs ago. Now I have a few crossed out. I will add a one more: To donate my unworn clothes/sell them.

In other news. I got my laptop 2 days ago ... (:

I'm actually way too lazy to post up my own photos of me unpacking it etc. It's gorgeous ... I'm naming him .. Dominic. Today I bought a notebook sleeve at officeworks, I'm surprised no one else stocks 13.3" notebook sleeves. Anyways, I'm excited.

I won't be blogging for a few days. I'll tell you why in my next blog :D

Til' next time, salute.

♥

k.

A little Gardening

"How Does Your Garden Grow?"
Kevin Hunt

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Good afternoon dears. Happy EOFYS (HELLO SALES) ! ... Hello lack-of-money.

♥

k.

Today I met Austin

Nadia Sarwar

Mae

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In two days, I met two of the most gorgeous little puppies ever ! This is Austin.





Can you figure his face out? He's kind of tilted his head.

(Courtesy of Leanne G's fb - maxilol)

And this is Harmony (:



(I know this looks like some sort of jail, but really she's a really happy little puppy, it's just so that she doesn't run around and chew everything in sight!)



AWWW SHNOOKEMS :D
Ok that's enough puppy love.
I'll catchya of the flipside :D

♥

k.

Just a pretty person

Model: Hailey Clauson
Photographer: Billy Kidd
Images found at : the fashion bloggess

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♥

k.

Happy 201st post !

"How to make an impression"

"How to say goodbye"

"How to dine"

"How to ask for a new wardrobe"


"The premise of the story is Jessica teaching kids (or dolls) how to be a little more "bad-ass" and each picture has a corresponding title."

Quote and Pictures found on becauseimaddicted
Photography by brahka x2
Styled by Daniel Caudill
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Yes, my 200th post was spent on my expression of how much I was entertained by The Big Bang Theory. Well happy 201st post anyways :D !

So today I have an exam - Food For a Healthy Planet - worst subject ever. NEVER. EVER DO IT. I hope I've mentioned Food For a Healthy Planet enough times so that I appear on the first google page when you search "Food For a Healthy Planet" - Just so that I can save the potential melU students looking to see if the subject is actually good. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. MELBOURNE UNI! Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. Food For a Healthy Planet. That should do it. Hopefully I save some innocent souls.

SO. If you have me on FB you'd know that my cheat sheet is an A4 double sided piece of paper typed in size 6 font and printed with 'borderless' printing. Unfortunately the start or the end of words are cut off at the side. Not cut off by the margins of Microsoft Word, no, by the actual physical piece of paper. Wow. The dedication I put in just to pass this silly subject. Sorry for the lack of a blog yesterday. I've been studying ... a fair bit. But that won't be an issue for the next 5 weeks of my life. Thank goodness. Maybe a little bit. Teeny tiny bit. Just a little bit.

So I've been sitting here for a good 2 minutes and I can't think of anything else to say, so I think this is the end of this entry ! I'll see YOU on the otherside.

♥

k.