The joy is darkness

DAD JUST WALKED INTO THE DOOR.


HAHAHAHA.


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k.

ceebs anymore. gotta study.
I'm waiting for those blissful 3 months of freedom. It'll be here before I know it.

Then I'll start missing the lazy reccesses and lunches at school.

bye. love you.

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k.

My birth and death, what lies between.

I like reading your blog. It makes me smile (:

Care to have an insight on my life?
YESTERDAY: Sadly, I epic-phailed my pholio. Well I'm hoping I didn't .. I wrote so much annotation for my inspirational images, then as the images continued, the annotating got so sparse it was like one word per page. However, it's gone now, and I can't do anything about it. I deserve the mark I get, I'm disorganised and I have learnt to master the art of procrastination. Which IS bad may I add.

So on Tuesday night, I stayed up till about 12.30, and actually slept at around 1am. I woke up at 5am to continue my folio. You do the math. Suprisingly on Wednesday I was pretty energetic. Thursday (today) I was pretty much nearly a wreck. Learning about sleep deprivation really helps you to understand a lot when you "go without sleep"

Yesterday was alright, I had photography first, of course I was going crazy with my folio etc. Then 3rd and 4th I had further. "Piss easy" (lol, I'm not a very refined lady hahaha) I ran back and forth between the photography room and further. My Chew didn't even realise that I aas gone. But it was fun anyway

Alright Time to go ! UPDATE LATER ! PROMISE !

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k.

Currently I am waiting to go have "fush and chups" *kiwi accent* with my cousins that came down from malaysia.

Favourite fml for the day:
"Today, was my music recital.I was playing and sneezed really loud into my saxophone which made the mouthpiece blurt out of my mouth. I have a neck strap and as the saxophone came back towards me the mouthpiece hit me in the head. I knocked myself out in front of the audience."

ouch. hahaha

i'll update late

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k.

A quickie

lol jokes.

Um just in quick response: I like reading other people's blogs because it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside. Probably much like the fuzzy feeling paolo got when he was talking to an elderly filipino guy. It was probably a future paolo.

if you'd asked him his name, maybe he would've said paolo.

anyways. that was all i wanted to say I have a lot of homework so bye :D

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k.

Just think.

YOU KNOW.
how you do that thing and you [see/look @] someone's face and you imagine them in like 30 years time or when they're approximately 40-50 years old?

I do that alot.

or I imagine poeple bald

hope that was inspiration ... or somethin'



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k.

Living in the now.

Today was a day that I just wanted to let everything go,

Have a nice walk . . .

And do some photography.

HOWEVER. I am burdened with the load of homework, stress and more stress. Yet here I am, continuing to blog.

Today was just 'one of those days'

I got up at 7am, showered and got ready for period 0. My jumper was still wet and if I put it in the dryer, it would shrink into a babrbie-doll-sized garment. So I got a bit iffy and my mum insisted on a 'light cycle,' which I'm guessing was less hot than the 'heavy cycle' hahaha. At exactly 7.40 I started to get ready to go to school. By the last minute, I pulled out my jumper from the dryer, and yet . .. . it was still wet. What the mushroom?! I know. So, on the journey to school, my mum and dad held my jumper infront of the car heater, while I froze my toes off in the back seat. My dad's pretty good at dangerous multitasking actually.

Period 0 & Period 1 went as fast as Yoshi on steroids on the 'baby park' race.
Recess, I had grapes.
Period 3 & 4, hello methods & english. Sucks to be me, with my eng SAC tomorrow. I could cry.
Lunch I had a hunch and my lunch went crunch as I munched. On tuna+corn pasta salad.
Period 5 & 6: photography and further. Photography ... I have so much to do, so little time. Exams are creeping up to me like a Nala in the Lion King when she sees Pumbaa in the fields.

homg homg homg homg. I'm gunna cry. In my pants. Don't worry, I'm living for the days where I'll have 3 months of complete bliss. I'm living for 10.46am, November 11th (my last exam).

I REPEAT MYSELF WHEN I'M UNDER STRESS.
I REPEAT MYSELF WHEN I'M UNDER STRESS.

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k.

Oh you're so cool

I'M ON A FERRY. I'M ON A FERRY
EVERYBODY LOOK AT ME I'M ON A FRIGGIN AWESOME FERRY

I'M ON A FERRY. I'M ON A FERRY
EVERYBODY LOOK AT ME 'CAUSE I'M SAILING ON A FERRY

I'M ON A FERRY. I'M ON A FERRY
TAKE A GOOD HARD LOOK AT THE FRIGGIN AWESOME FERRY.

hahaha.

(ok so maybe the syllables don't work to well. .. . . :D)

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k.

The wonderful Adventures ,,,

Yay for a night of Essay writing for 'The Kite Runner'. (enforcing some essay writing skills)

"It is Hassan, not Amir who is the hero of 'The Kite Runner'." Discuss.

I just realised, as I was typing discuss, it's like dis-cuss. Kinda like "Don't cuss" (As in don't curse. As in. Don't swear hehehe) Alright. So yeah.

Today, hm.
1. Psych and Engrish: Psych is great. I love it. MS RAK ACTUALLY SAID ROFL. LIKE "ROFFLE" AHAHAHAHAHAAHAH ...English. I could have fallen asleep. Foh' serious.

2. Double Free feat. Mentoring: I'm glad I finished methods at school today. I'm so proud of myself c: Mentoring hehehehehehehehe My mentoring is quite funny :D

3. Free + Photography: Free = eh. Photography. Could've fallen asleep once again. Steph and Ken were sitting on either side of me and were both catching some Z's. It was like putting a chocoholic going cold turkey in a room with Lindt bunnies and Lindts.

So that was my day in compact liddle shnazzle.

REMEMBER FORMAL MONEY TOMORROW.
And. to organise Limos + Buy dress + shoes. HEH :D

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k.

I wonder, DO YOU KNOW HIM?

Excerpt Dr. Shadrach Meshach (S.M.) Lockridge's famous sermon.



"I wonder, Do you KNOW Him?"

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k.

Today

... is the day, that I officially, really, started my photography folio.

Damn kat, you're good. Lol, that only refers to the title page and my workbrief/plan page. I have to move everything up a page :c Oh well. It's actually really exciting working on a folio. I should do this more often ... But leisurely ... After I finish school.

*coughs like an old man*

"SWINE FLU!"

Today. Let talk about today. Double Photography: Suprisingly! ... It went faster then I thought it was going to go. I live in complete fear she'll ask the dreaded question, "So, have you done photoshoot 5?" *shrivels*

Hey ! Do you remember the show: "The Secret Work of Alex Mac" ?

Then I had ... Double further, A bludge as usual.

Something bizarre happened today in the locker bay. A locker fell down, because some guy, whether accidental or on purpose, was being an idiot. Seriously. We're in year 12.

The locker hit a girl called Amber and she was ambo'd to the hospital. I think.

Anyways. So that's the adventures of today. I'll leave you to ponder on your own thoughts.

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k.

What ever happened ...

to money can't buy you happiness? Because

apparently,


You can buy friends.
foh' serious.






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k.

Dear Friend,

Oh shananigans. Sorry Rach. I got distracted after reading your comment.

HAPPY BELATED 17TH BIRTHDAY RACH

You know I love you to bits, dear friend. I miss you. I stalked you on facebook already hehehe

:D HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS

"Oh um, this voucher doesn't start till February"
AHAHAHAHAAHAAA. That was a funny day.
Remember that time, and we were so high we were laughing at a chair. It was just so funny. And you told me the joke:

"Why did the girl fall off the swing?"
"I don't know rach, you tell me"
"Because she had no arms"
HOMGROFLROFLROFLMAOLOLOLOLOLHAHAHAHA. *tears from laughter*
"Ok ok ok, WHY did she have no arms?"
"Why didn't she have any arms?"
"Because she was a pineapple."

LLLOOOOOLLLL *literally rofls*

I cried of laughter that night.

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k.

Homowork.

*signlanguagesnathan"howareyou"*

This blog is merely so I can shut up and do my homework.
What to do, you ask?

Methods:
That crazy woman gave us 4 exercises in one day, double period. Then she continued to say that we have a test on Monday. I, am slowly and surely edging to my death. Embracing myself ... NOT to fail. Hopefully.

Psychology:
HELLO PAEDIATRIC (pediatric? can't even spell it right) PSYCHOLOGIST. I still need to seek guidance in this area. See if He wants me set my life to this career. I ... just don't know. Homework wise, Chapter questions and ... Revision for mid-years.

Further:
I love you, further. Um, . ... .. Exercise 10D or was it 10C ? Whew, I ham pathetic at this.

English:
Optional, "guilt homework" She gave us like 4 language analysis to do in class, I genuinely worked hard, thus I got half a language analysis done. I'll bet it's more than the right side of the class did. Ohh burn.

Photography:
Epic phail. Don't wanna talk about it. Folio due in 2 weeks. Was spose to have a photoshoot today. I'm an idiot for not organising it properly. It doesn't help when I'm such an awkward person.



Oh and hey. JOKE TIME :D let's lighten the mood.

"They said Obama would be a good president when pigs fly.
Yet 100 day's in, SWINE FLU"





(for you slow people "swine f-l-e-w" it's ok, I understand, I didn't get it till the dim light above my head turned on.)

tonight I'm having dinner with the cousin's and uncle + aunty + g'rents. One word. Steamboat. YOU GET ME CORDS RIGHT? :D


hahaha.

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k.

I'm back in town
and everything has changed
I feel let down
The faces stay the same
I see, see shadows
Of who we used to be
When I drive, drive so slow
Through this memory...

When we were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go of the rest

I heard myself
Say things I'd take back
If I could retell
And make these stories last
I see shadows
Of who we'll always be
And I drive these roads
That made our memories

Everything has changed
Faces stay the same

When we were only kids
And our time couldn't end
And how tall did we stand?
With the world in our hands

Shadows and regrets...

We let go of the rest...

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k.

Sad, I know.

lawl. lame.

I officially stopped at 1:12:10
(1 HOUR, 12 MINUTES, and 10 SECONDS)

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k.

Wondering while Pondering

1. Posting a comment won't work guys. I'm working on it :c Meanwhile, tagboard is ideal. (:
2. Do you button your shirt from bottom-up or top-down?
3. I will be working on editing a "photo" tab at the top.

Kudos to the creator of this page. Lovers you. ♥
"So Kat, How are you feeling? What are you thinking?"

So kind of you to ask, Sir/Madam. Currently. Hmm ... Photography ... What to think? Regret? or ... "lazy passion." I'd like to think the latter. It'll reignite soon.

What should I do after Year 12? Psychology ? What do YOU think? Could you see me as a paediatric psychologist? Do I have good enough PR (public relations)? Do I make you feel comfortable in conversation? COULD I DO IT FOR LONG TERM? Will it pay good? (lawl)

I really should be doing something constructive.

*listens to leekspin*

To do: (after year 12)
AusLan shortcourse.
Make a joint dA account with sarah.
Watch "all those" tv series.
Find my 'style' of photography.
Start a vlog.

Ok, I'm sure that's all. I have such pointless blogs. Why do you guys continue to read them.

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k.

You're my cuppy cake

heyheyheyheyhey there my liddle minions *MWAHAHAHAAHAAAa. ah. aaaha. *

So tonight is the night of photography :D I shall be focusing on photography tonight.
(and then onto eating you for dessert - did you know desserts backwards is stressed !?)

I don't really have much to say, my point of this blog was completely pointless. But I'M SURE YOU DON'T MIND. ohhh, you gotta watch two things ok ?

This one's the uber cute-ness.


And this one's just whoresome.


alright, time to go and grow some hair on my eyebrows.

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k.

Passing you by.

After reading ... blog posts ... and friends comments and ... just seeing people grow, it makes me realise how much, I don't know, how much ... we've left behind I guess.

These are just my thoughts. Numbered ... for my logical thinking.

#1 I am envious of some (one), that exceed my dreams, my expectations. What I always wanted to do. I hate how I just feel as if I'm just watching someone live out what I want to be. The one thing I really actually hate stems from jealousy. I mean what can I do? I can't be someone I'm not. But I want to be the WHOLE me, the potential me... ? I guess. My personality just holds me back.

#2 I love to read your thoughts, no matter how close or "just friends" we are. It makes me feel I know a different side to you other than just who I know you as at school.

#3 As much as people say that I'm smart, clever, asian nerd: I'm distracted and easily amused. I dislike how people think I'm smart just because I'm asian. I do have a life, thank you.

#4 (elaborating from #1) You know that feeling you get you're not quite the person you want to be.

#5 I don't know if I can live up to the expectations that my parents think I'm at.

#6 The global convention at church on Sunday made me realise how LITTLE I'm doing for His kingdom, and how much I make the world revolve around me. How selfish I am. How ignorant I am. The world is so BIG.

This blog is illogical, maybe irrational. But bottomline is that ...

Maybe I'm just not meant to know everything at once.
Maybe He's just leaving me in mystery.

Maybe. I'm just too young now to understand.


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k.

Oops

that awful feeling where you haven't done enough homework.

the feeling of.

GUILT

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k.